2007 September « we wear chains that excite the feds.

which cannot happen at this stage in the game.

that’s why blogs like this are useful. you get to sit and really reflect on what’s going on in your mind; you start to realize things that are going on are/aren’t what they should be, and you can start to correct if necessary.

so. i woke up this morning and realized that i was way off the path of my original destination, and that the longer i stay in this situation, the further i’m gonna drift. for a number of reasons, i can’t continue like this.

point blank, new york city is still the focus. it’s harder than i thought it would be, and planning to uproot and look for a job in a month or two is a bad way to do it. i won’t go into too much unnecessary detail about that though.

point is. the push gotta be for come ups, whereever they may be, until this nyc shit pops off. so, i’ve decided to go on and apply for a job in IT here at my current place of employment. also, i’m going to start looking for a new place in philly around the beginning of october. fuck it. i can’t stay there forever, no matter how nice the idea of paying $200 a month for rent is. a NUMBER of reasons why i can’t do that much longer.

my homey in the BX is lookin out for me with some job apps, in the entertainment industry no less. i’m hoping that something happens along those lines. iont care what it is, i can do it, and if it pays enough, i will.

also, i’ma apply for classes at FIT. again, fuckit.

life’s a gamble © blu

might as well take some chances right?

check it out, too. i’ma bust my ass networking in philly while i’m still here. as much as i knock the philadelphia music scene, it’s real and it actually is vibrant. it’s not a meal ticket like nyc is, but you can get a name for yourself, which is what i need without question. so i’ma start hittin up parties, shakin hands, buyin drinks, get my shit on. meanwhile get on these beats and rhymes and see who believin in the dream besides me.

also i’m doin my kanye and hollerin at studios, b.

get me a good knapsack and carry the laptop to the front door of these bitches and see if i can play somebody some dope shit, you never know, might just be the way in.

anyway. ARGH!

lets go!!